Sweets thinks I'm a pessimist. Perhaps I am. I think this cycle maybe already be over. Now before you scoff let me tell you what just happened.
Having just woken up from a nice nap with my kitties, I jumped from the couch and went upstairs to insert my Endometrin. I noticed some blood on the applicator. No big deal. Spotting is to be expected after all that messing about down there. I proceeded downstairs, washed some of the fresh blueberries we just purchased and sat down to read my email. Suddenly, I started cramping. And then the cramps got more and more intense. These were cramps like I've never experienced before. My heart pounded. My skin became drenched in sweat. I couldn't catch my breath. I was writhing on the floor in pain. To cool myself down I literally crawled into shower with my clothes on. I was too hot, in too much pain, to bother to disrobe.
Sweets felt helpless. He couldn't comfort me in any way so he called the clinic.
By the time the nurse called back, my pain had subsided. After asking a couple of questions, she felt that perhaps when I put in the Endometrin in I may have hit my cervix. With the jolt, the cervix reacted and hence then cramps. She called the cramps a "mechanical" reaction. Of course my worry was that the cramps were enough to expell the embryos. She didn't say yes and she didn't say no. All she said was that the cramps would have to be pretty violent (they were!) in order to expell them. She did provide the bread and jam analogy to try to make me feel better, but ended the conversation with "Regardless, it's out of your hands." Ugh.
Yes it's out of my hands but man, I wonder if I messed up already.
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Thursday, July 19, 2012
Thursday, September 29, 2011
Well..that was uncomfortable
Like any good infertile, I googled the crap out of endometrial biopsy. The reactions to the procedure varied from "that was uncomfortable" to "Oh mother of God this hurts". As you can imagine, my mind immediately went to the "this is going to hurt like a mo'fo" side of things. Driving in today, I was terrified. Sweets is in pre-production on a project and could join me so I was on my own today.
The clinic was hopping. There were a ton of people there. Apparently they've just opened up the clinic to a new program "Pelvic Pain" so I assume a number of the people there were not for fertility treatments but rather pain management or relief. I had a bit of a wait so the new demographic in the clinic allowed for some interesting people watching.
Dr. C and I chatted for a bit. I asked him a few more questions regarding more blood work (immunology) as well as the biopsy. He didn't feel that immunity was our issue. And while there is no conclusive evidence that biopsies lead to better implantation numbers, he would perform the procedure because I asked. Further, he feels that within the next two attempts, I will get pregnant. He was confident in fact. I wish I was as confident as him!
The procedure was super quick but quite uncomfortable. He scraped my uterus 5 times. It was if someone took a window scraper and used it to remove the frost inside me. Ugh... With the first application of the instrument, my uterus cramped up and I immediately started perspiring. Thankfully it only lasted a few minutes. If it continued much longer, I think I would have been incredibly vocal about my pain. As soon as the procedure was over, the cramps subsided. While I'm still experiencing some cramping right now, it's incredibly mild.
Dr. C is starting up his own private clinic. Tomorrow is his last day. He encouraged me to remain at my current clinic for my FETs; however, if they are not successful, he stated that if I wanted to move to his clinic, no referral would be necessary. Though I haven't been successful with him, I do trust him. Granted, he's incredibly cerebral, a little awkward and goofy, he has an excellent reputation in the IF community. I feel quite comfortable at my clinic, but I think that if we have to do IVF #3, we'll be moving to Dr. C's new clinic.
I had to wait a while for my nurse's appointment regarding the FET protocol. It's the same protocol as before so nothing to report there.
The highlight of my visit today? My clinic mom Ra.vi was there today. :) She's awesome. As soon as she saw me, she gave me one of those million dollar smiles and asked how I was doing. Since there was a backlog of patients today, I had to wait a while to see the nurse. During my wait, Ra.vi offered me some of her homemade curry and naan. Delicious! Love Indian food. On my way out, Ra.vi was going on her break. We rode down on the elevator today and she gave me a huge hug before exiting.
She made my day. :)
The clinic was hopping. There were a ton of people there. Apparently they've just opened up the clinic to a new program "Pelvic Pain" so I assume a number of the people there were not for fertility treatments but rather pain management or relief. I had a bit of a wait so the new demographic in the clinic allowed for some interesting people watching.
Dr. C and I chatted for a bit. I asked him a few more questions regarding more blood work (immunology) as well as the biopsy. He didn't feel that immunity was our issue. And while there is no conclusive evidence that biopsies lead to better implantation numbers, he would perform the procedure because I asked. Further, he feels that within the next two attempts, I will get pregnant. He was confident in fact. I wish I was as confident as him!
The procedure was super quick but quite uncomfortable. He scraped my uterus 5 times. It was if someone took a window scraper and used it to remove the frost inside me. Ugh... With the first application of the instrument, my uterus cramped up and I immediately started perspiring. Thankfully it only lasted a few minutes. If it continued much longer, I think I would have been incredibly vocal about my pain. As soon as the procedure was over, the cramps subsided. While I'm still experiencing some cramping right now, it's incredibly mild.
Dr. C is starting up his own private clinic. Tomorrow is his last day. He encouraged me to remain at my current clinic for my FETs; however, if they are not successful, he stated that if I wanted to move to his clinic, no referral would be necessary. Though I haven't been successful with him, I do trust him. Granted, he's incredibly cerebral, a little awkward and goofy, he has an excellent reputation in the IF community. I feel quite comfortable at my clinic, but I think that if we have to do IVF #3, we'll be moving to Dr. C's new clinic.
I had to wait a while for my nurse's appointment regarding the FET protocol. It's the same protocol as before so nothing to report there.
The highlight of my visit today? My clinic mom Ra.vi was there today. :) She's awesome. As soon as she saw me, she gave me one of those million dollar smiles and asked how I was doing. Since there was a backlog of patients today, I had to wait a while to see the nurse. During my wait, Ra.vi offered me some of her homemade curry and naan. Delicious! Love Indian food. On my way out, Ra.vi was going on her break. We rode down on the elevator today and she gave me a huge hug before exiting.
She made my day. :)
Thursday, May 19, 2011
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