I am lucky.

Yes.  Infertility sucks.  But there are some wonderful things in my life.  Though it may not seem like it lately, I do love my job.  I love teaching; I'm passionate about my subjects.  On Monday, I snapped at two of my favourite students and then broke down in tears when they stopped in to see me.  I didn't mean to and I apologized sincerely.  They both offered me hugs and one of them checked in on me later in the day.  

Today, Cass came by and asked, "Mrs. B can I come by at lunch and get you to look at something?"  Assuming it was for some sort of post-secondary application, I didn't hesitate to say yes.  Well at lunch Cass, Elle and Becca came into my room, arms full of gifts and baking.  Cass had made me a beautiful card and a lemon loaf.  Elle made amazing walnut butter tarts. And Becca made delicious banana bread with chocolate chips.  The three of them then put together a little gift bag of hot chocolate, chocolate, tea, bath salts, hand lotion and homemade jam.  They said, "We wanted to make you a warm and fuzzy package to help you feel better."  How thoughtful is that?  They saw me in pain and they reached out to make me feel better.

Yes infertility sucks big time.  I hate that I feel this way.  Right now, I have no control over my body and my emotions.  It sucks.  But you know what?  I am lucky to have such wonderful people in my life.